“Grandma and Grandpa, tell me a story and snuggle me with your love. When I’m
in your arms, the world seems small and we’re blessed by the heavens above.”
I don’t even know where to start. Life gets so busy that I have to admit, I haven’t thought about you in awhile and it breaks my heart to realize this.
I have two girls of my own now, and a husband that, after eight years of marriage, I am almost convinced I’m going to keep. My life is busy and even on the rough days, I am so, so happy and thankful for what I have. Many times, when I look at my girls, they remind me of my family. Mostly my sister, parent, cousins, in-laws or even myself and husband, but sometimes in a very brief and fleeting second I will look at them and I suddenly think of you. I can never recall what it is, but I am reminded of you and I wonder how much of their other mannerisms span even further back than you, to my great grandparents and beyond.
I miss you, it has been so long since I last saw you. I realized that I never told you how much you mean to me. I know I always said ‘I love you’, but if it is said in the same nonchalant way over and over, it begins to resonate at the same level as ‘hello’.
I am thankful for you, for the strong, kind, loving characteristics that you passed down to my parents who passed them down to me. I remember all of the fun times I spent with you and how much you made me laugh. We are a family that loves to laugh and that comes from you, my grandparents. I loved spending time with you. I wish we spent more time together.
Time really does go by fast. So fast that when I finally want to sit down and tell you how much you mean to me, you are no longer here.
I wish I could know more about who you really were. Before grandchildren, before my parents were born and before you were married. I’d love to hear about your dreams and if you got to do everything on your bucket list. I wish I could know about your parents, but all of those memories are gone now. I wish I had more pictures with you.
I wish you could see your granddaughters. You would be happy to know that they love their grandparents just as much as I love you.
I hope that somehow you know that I still think of you; that, when I’m having a really difficult time with something, that I talk to you and I ask you to sit with me. I gather my strength from you and just thinking you are near me, makes me feel better. I think about the day we buried you. I can remember everything. I remember I felt lost because my connection with you had closed and there was nothing else I could say and I know that anything I did say while you where here wasn’t enough. It would never be enough.
That is what I would tell you if you were here.
That, and also that I don’t understand how anyone else can wear those shirts that say ‘World’s Best Grandma(pa)’ because clearly you have that title. How dare they?
Three of my four grandparents have passed away and my grandmother currently lives in Winnipeg.
I want to wish you a Happy Grandparent’s Day. If your grandparents have passed on, today is a good day to reflect on the memories you had together . If your grandparents are still living, then today is a great day to pick up the phone.